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This is a vent blog, but maybe it will give some insight into the types of changes that are hard as an autistic person:

This week has been a barrage of change. I notice the tiny changes that I'm told allistics don't notice, and there were also a lot of bigger changes.

First, I got a new student, which is a pretty common change; it happens about every 6 weeks.

Then, I tried to do a lesson with an existing student, but our software wouldn’t work. Work told me the software had permanently discontinued service to our company, and I had to download and learn a new software, so I did. Several days later, though, they told me that the original software had been reinstated.

This week, 4 lessons got rescheduled by students, my roommate was coming and going on a new schedule, and I was sleeping on a new bed. I started a new major project for work, and service techs came with noisy drills and disrupted my routines.

I'm working way more hours than I can handle, and it's triggering my OCD something fierce. I need a break. I need a break way more often than most people need a break. I don't have the spoons to edit this blog, so here it is raw, folks.
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