.Being.Us

CW: Rape, abuse, suicidal ideation, Christianity, religion I'm writing this blog to process through my feelings about a recurring dream I have in which I return to my old church for a visit and am shunned by the people there who used to be my friends. I used to be heavily involved in the Church. When I converted to Christianity at 15, I took it for granted that God would talk to me and was hailed as a prophet by some in my church as I "heard from Him." When I hit 18, I found other people who believed God still talked and worked among people today, and I became heavily involved in the Charismatic Church movement. I continued to be involved in this for several years. I even went to college for a year on track to be ordained as a minister and leave as a missionary at the end of my schooling. When I transferred to another school, I changed my major to Teaching English as a Second Language with the same goal in mind. At age 22, with my Associate's Degree in hand, I fled