Things That Keep Me Well

♭♭♭ Here are a few things that keep me well ♭♭♭

Stimming constantly, and I need stim toys or objects for it
My weighted blanket when I sleep or after a shower
Going outside at least twice a week
Talking (IMing) my friends daily
Taking my psych meds on time, every time
Time with my service dog is so, so important.
Journaling or processing with others helps, too, but I can't always articulate. It comes in surges.
Not talking on the phone, even to people I love, when I'm not up for it
Avoiding my triggers
At least one day per week with no expectations whatsoever

♭♭♭ These are a few things that keep me well ♭♭♭

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