.Being.Us

"Delusions are strong beliefs that are not consistent with the person’s culture, are unlikely to be true and may seem irrational to others" ( NAMI ). I deal with delusions pretty constantly. I often think I'm being followed or surveilled, and I believe that people I see are vampires, werewolves, or goblins using illusion magic to pass as human. In the past, when I was not on the correct anti-psychotic medication, I also believed that people around me were being replaced by replicas and feared being replaced myself. The delusions I experience off of anti-psychotic medications affect how I see the whole world, while the delusions on anti-psychotics still occur within what I perceive as the "real world." Sometimes, these delusions are re-enforced by hallucinations, as well. Because I experience delusions so frequently, and because anti-psychotics sometimes allow me to approach those thoughts logically, I use several strategies to test thoughts that I think might b...

CW: Involuntary psychiatric hospital commitment, details of hallucinations and delusions So, I want to update everyone on my psych situation. I don't know if this will be a positive or a negative post. It may be a little disjointed. If I start talking about something and realize that explaining it is putting me in a bad head space, I'm just going to end the paragraph mid-thought and move on to the next part. I went to the hospital this week because my anti-psychotic, Seroquel wasn't working. I was having simple auditory and visual hallucinations, as well as delusions that were much more immersive than usual. It turns out that Seroquel often doesn't work for autistic people (like me). At first, the delusions started out disjointed, which is more normal for me. In the first couple of days of the psychotic episode, I thought all of these things (copied from my Tumblr ), but not simultaneously: That my neighbors were monsters and that there was a monster trapped ...